alicia keys - try sleeping with a broken heart.

hah here i am again. falling apart again.

nothing seems to work out for me at all.

i'm tired.

frustrated.

upset.

longing.

this repeated cycle is tearing me apart.

i'm not superwoman.

i can be strong.

but i'm not superwoman.

i wanna fall back and go away for a bit.

i keep getting hurt.

i keep messing up.

it doesn't seem as tho anything i do is right....even for myself.

i keep trying but i'm startin to think i should just give up.

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i did something i didn't think i could do.

i hate the effect you have on me.

why couldn't you just let me go when i said goodbye the first time?

why couldn't you understand that it just kept hurting me everytime?

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feelings never die, you just try to forget about it....and i tried really hard.

i almost forgot.... but you had to come back and remind me.

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i don't wna ever cause problems.

i don't ever wanna make people feel uneasy.

you helped me feel guilty in doing so.

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yes i want to blame you. because it'll help me forget you

but don't worry, i'll own up to my mistakes too though.

don't you worry,

i know i'm not an angel.

i know what i got myself into.

i admit, i'm wrong.

forget me not.

i wrote you a love letter but you never replied cuz it never got to you.

i wrote you a note saying how sorry i was but i never sent that to you either.

my heart aches because nothing seems to work out for me,

even though i want it to. even though the doubts build up, i wanna believe in the impossible.

i want to be proven wrong for once.

i hate having everything all figured out, because it keeps goin the way i thought it would go.

nothing surprises me.

it sucks knowing from the beginning it wouldn't work out and having that put in front of my face at the end with the real reason why.

tell me something i haven't heard yet.... tell me you'll try for me.

i want to be yours, if you'll take the time and effort to make me yours.

but i'm not falling for the boyish tricks and toys.

babygirl's all grown up and knows what she wants.

if you can't give me what i want, i don't want it then.

i know what i want and more importantly, i know what i DESERVE.

so don't come up to me thinking you'll have it your way and what not.

i have no fear in bustin' balls baby.

baby boy, don't get in to anything if you're not sure.

i want you to be sure you want this.

don't try to be all gutsy if you don't have the stomach for it.

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darling,

SAY what you MEAN

and MEAN what you SAY.

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sometimes i feel like i'm too honest of a person.

i wouldn't lead you on if don't mean to.

i'm a one guy girl. Strictly one guy girl...

i'd hate to give you the wrong impression, so i'll tell you straight up in case i do.

if i'm not feelin' it, i say it and bring it up.

i've been honest with every guy i've ever been with..and not with just guys. i'm completely honest with every person.

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why can't people ever do the same for me?

i don't care if it hurts, HURT me and tell me the truth, at least i'll have some respect for you.

sooner or later, i will realize you were just a worthless piece of crap.

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i think one of the hardest things to consider, is whether i really wanna know how you're doing now.

cuz obviously i'm still stuck,

while you would already have someone on your mind.

would i be able to hold it in if i asked how you been and you tell me you're doing just fine, really good actually and that you've already met someone new. would i be able to hold my composure?

i don't fall easily, but i see potential and that grows.

i shake it off. i TRY every damn day to stop thinking about you, and when i think i already did, i get knocked down cuz i can never deny how you made me feel. and i just can't ever seem to make it past that.

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when we make it past the point of friends, and things didn't work out,

nothing's ever the same.

this is why i can't be friends with someone after things don't work out.

i just don't see it ever goin there.

in the end, it's usually them saying the goodbyes to me.

but this last one was a different one. cuz i cut the ties.

but still, when i care, i can never seem to stop caring.

once i've incorporated you in my life, even for a bit, that chapter in my life never dies out, cuz i'll still come running back to it in my memories at least.

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treat me right.

i deserve it.

i'm worth it and i know that.

make me fall, but catch me when you do.

let me know that you got me.

i'm not at all your one night stand and i won't stick around to just be that

i'm not a fool

when i have you all figured out, prove me wrong.

when  i walk away, pull me back to you, cuz that's where i really wanna be, with you, in your arms.

tell me this is what you want with me, cuz that's exactly what i'm dying to hear you say.

try for me.

meet me halfway...to bait me in.

say that you'd do it for me, and maybe i'll let you.